Monday, January 23, 2017

Open Letter | Best Friend


I've been contemplating whether I should start an open letter series on this blog. I don't know how long I will be active on blogger and it would be nice to have something to look and think woah was I like that during my younger days. Something to ponder when I get older you know. So for my first open letter series, I introduce you to an open letter to my former best friend.

Time sure does fly. 10 years. 

It's been 10 freaking long years. How the heck have you been? I don't really know where, when and why our relationship started falling apart. I mean, I did have some assumptions and ideas after our encounter at school as to why. I know change is inevitable but I didn't think that would happen to us. But it did. Must have been a puberty thing, haha. You were growing into the man that I have always knew you were going to be. You have always been smart and you know what you've always wanted to be in life. 

I guess our views in life just didn't seem to match up. It's such a bummer that we drifted apart. When I first came to Canada, my world seemed so terrifying. Learning a new language that I didn't know, new environments and new friends seemed to terrify the shit out of me. I was barely 12. I still remember that first-time jitters that I felt as the principal accompanied me to the classroom. And there you were. You were smiling and everything and we hit it off right away! Everyone would be jealous of our friendship. Every lunch time, you would go to the corner store and buy me these unusual looking candies that I have never seen in my life. And everyone would keep begging me to give them. sigh. I miss the elementary life. Remember when we went to Science Centre? I don't want to get into the details of what we did there but I'm sure you remember it vividly because I do. I won first place there out of all the Catholic schools who entered the competition.

High school came. And everything just seemed to be changing around me. Even you. I saw you that day with a girl. To this day, I could still make up what that girl's face looked like. She gave me that look. You know that "why are you friends with her" look. Up to this day, I don't know if she was your girlfriend at the time. We just stopped talking after that. And I hate myself for it. I wonder if you feel the same as well.

I just want to let you know that even after all these years, I would still want to be your best friend in a heartbeat. Well, that is if you ever ask me again or if we ever meet again. I don't even know if you still live in the same address or if you're still in contact with our group of friends or if you still love that candy you always buy at the corner store near school. I'll always be here for you even if you're not.

Sunday, January 08, 2017

The Sunday Currently | 9


Yes, I'm so happy I did 2 post in 1 day. It's been a long time since I did my last Sunday Currently series. It's Sunday, that means school starts tomorrow for everyone except for me. Mine starts on the 11th. Another semester is waiting for me to stress about. Lmao but hopefully I kick its butt before it does to me. 

The Sunday Currently | 9

Reading David Levithan's Every Day plus my mentions and direct messages on Twitter

Writing this particular post

Listening to Seventeen's 웃음 꼿. It's an amazing song! It's my favourite song from their Going Seventeen album! Please give it a listen. 

Smelling nothing in particular. This part always makes me sniff out of nowhere.

Wishing my GPA to rise

Hoping (havent ordered it yet but) for my Seventeen album to arrive fast 

Wearing my Taekwondo pants, a white V-neck shirt and a hoodie

Loving Seventeen lately. I'm literally head over heels over them.

Wanting to collect all of Seventeen's albums and ahh everything!!

Needing a job to be able to fund my fangirl lifestyle

Feeling tired and sleepy! 

Clicking through Koreanmall and Yesstyle looking for things to buy

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This post felt so short I originally intended not to post it. But here it is anways. 

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Book Goals in 2017


Hi, here again for another post. Why do I keep finding myself posting in the middle of the night. It's currently 2:09 in the morning. Anyways, I'm trying to keep my blog alive. Recently, I've decided I want to read more books in 2017. One of the reason is because of Seventeen's Wonwoo. One of his 2017 goals is to read 50 books a year. If he can read that much despite his hectic schedule, then what is stoping me? Another reason is that one of my friend, Andrea, has inspired me to start reading again. She probably doesn't even know that and probably will never see this post but if you ever do, hi! my little soft! 

Now, I've read a lot of books in the past, not that many compared to other people who are way into reading, but just enough for me to say a lot. But like I said, recently, I've wanted to read more books.
I've only ever started getting into books when I got to Canada. The first book I've ever laid my hands on was The Outsiders by S.E Hinton . It was a mandatory reading for all the grade 7s. We even had to watch the movie. To be honest, I don't remember what the book was about. It was just very memorable as it was the first book that was given to me on my first day of school.

The book that I will never forget is The Giver by Lois Lowry. Again, it was also a mandatory reading, for grade 8s this time. The story was something I've never even heard of. The setting of the book was so vivid into my mind, it made me think like I was actually in the story itself. Everytime I go into a bookstore and see The Giver, I always smile and think, Aaah this is THE book. I really love it. I recommend for everybody to give it a try!

I've finished the very first book of my 2017 book goal yesterday. It's called Walking on Water by Richard Paul Evans. It was very eye opening and it tugged at my heartstring. Not gonna lie, it really did make me shed a tear here and there. Gotta give it up to Mr. Evans. I've read another of his work and felt the same thing.

I went to the library earlier with my sisters to borrow more books that Andrea had posted on her Twitter thread. I'm impressed with her book thread as I realized we are kind into the same genre. We also love poetry. Here are the books that I've borrowed and on my reading list:

David Levithan - Everyday
David Levithan - Every You, Every Me
David Levithan - The Realm of Possibility
David Levithan - Love is the Higher Law
David Levithan - Are We There Yet?
Richard Paul Evans - Last December
Tamara Ireland Stone - Time Between Us

Ah! Now that I think about it, I should go and make a series about book reviews. Let's see how that goes. Good luck and happy reading to me! Also, if you have any book recommendations to share, please feel free to comment down below! I love reading books that people recommend. It's like peeking into a tiny part of their life. 


Wednesday, January 04, 2017

Happy 2017!


I had a Christmas post saved in my drafts but it had already past so I guess I'll delete that and instead write this post. Anyways, although this is very late, I wish all the readers of this blog a Happy New Year! I hope happiness, luck and success only comes your way this 2017. I haven't done a lot of things last year and I wasn't proud of the things I did last year.

I am hoping 2017 treats me a little better this time. I need to make better decisions this year. I think the only sole reason why 2016 was meh was because of all the choices I've made. And I'm here to change that! I've even wrote a new years resolution that I really want to accomplish. I don't know what else to talk about so here is my little new years resolution.

- Work out
- Study hard
- Get all A+s on all my Jan 2016 subjects
- Continue learning/playing the guitar
- Get back on stretching 
- Get back on doing my skin care routine
- Stop procrastinating or at least lessen it. 

I used to make my resolutions every year but for some reason I can never follow it. Hope all of you guys are able to follow your own new years resolution as well! I believe the reason why people fail to follow their resolution is because they set up such a high standards on their list. Start from the basic and ask yourself if you are capable of doing it. Then the rest will follow. You will eventually be able to successfully do it! 

Thursday, December 15, 2016

Too Much Information


Look it's another post in a week. That's an improvement. I'm currently in campus waiting for my friend to arrive so we can talk to our academic counsellor on what we can do after we graduate college. Sigh, the adult life is pretty hard. I need to kill time and I saw somebody link her TMI tag post on my message board and I wanted to do it. This is going to be quite a long post so if you do stay until the end, you're awesome!

I was supposed to post this 2 days ago but I somehow forgot since I was doing my sister's essay. I literally just remembered it when I was about to go to bed. Anyways, here it is.

1. What are you wearing?
- My parka jacket, knit sweater, jeans from H&M, combat boots, a baseball hat and a knitted scarf

2. Ever been in love?
- I don't think I ever have been in love in terms of an actual real human being that I know personally.

3. Ever had a terrible break up?
- Not a breakup between a boyfriend and a girlfriend but more of a friendship break up. The guy and I  used to be the closest of friends back in elementary. I know it's been about 10 years but everytime I look back at our stupid memories, I kinda do miss it. The worst part is, there were no goodbyes said. He just thought I wasn't cool enough to be his best friend when we got into high school.

4. How tall are you?
- 150 cm. I'm too short for my age.

5. How much do you weigh?
- I'm barely 90 pounds.
P.S I eat a lot!!! I just don't gain anything. 

6. Any tattoos?
- Unfortunately no. My parents would karate chop my ass if I ever did get one. But I really want one!

7. Any piercing?
- I got my two earlobes pierced before I could even walk and talk

8. OTP?
- Being in the kpop fandom has sparked my interest in OTPs. lmao. Though I have no particular OTPs with my ultimate group, I do love me some CheolSoo, SoonHoon, Meanie, SoonWoo and JiHan. You probably don't even know who they are.

9. Favourite Show?
- I am not much of a TV person so I don't watch shows. Though I watch a of Korean dramas and variety shows. My favourite would be Running Man, The Return of Superman and Hello Counsellor for variety shows. I have too many for Korean dramas and I don't want to list a whole essay.

10. Favourite Bands?
- Does Seventeen count as a band? They're an idol group.

11. Something you miss?
- How life used to be so easy and drama-free back in elementary school. I want it back please!

12. Favourite song?
- As of now, my most listened song is Seventeen's Boom Boom and Smile Flower!!!

13. Hold old are you?
- 22 years old

14. Zodiac sign?


15. Quality you look for in a partner?
- Hmm this is quite hard. I usually just start liking somebody if I like them. I do love it when a guy is family oriented, trustworthy, someone I can lean on. I'm not looking for the perfect man. Just somebody I can be with for the rest of my life. When did I get so cheesy?

16. Favourite quote?
- I don't have a particular favourite quote that I go by every single day. I'm into poetry and quotes that I find it hard to pick a favourite.

17. Favourite actor?
- Hwang Jung Eum and Jisung are one of my favourite actors. I'm not into Western celebrities as much so I don't know much about them.

18. Favourite colour
- anything pastels. Especially pink

19. Loud music or soft?
- This depends on what my mood is for the day. I like both.

20. Where do you go when you're sad?
- I'm not a very expressive person so I usually tend to just keep it inside and stay in my room.

21. How long does it take you to shower?
- Over an hour!! Though on most cases, when it's time for school, I can go as short as 5 minutes.

22. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?
- FOREVER. It takes me forever to get ready. My mom would be screaming to get in the car and I would still be in putting my jeans on. Everyone in the house hates me because of it lmao.

23. Ever been in a physical fight?
- I guess Taekwondo sparring can be considered a fight. 

24. Turn on's?
- When somebody smells so good and I love it when the other person smiles first when we have eye contact. It also turns me on when the guy has a good relationship with their family. I LOVE IT WHEN GUYS WEAR DRESS SHIRTS. I AM SCREAMING.

25.  Turn off's?
- When they swear too much. I know I swear too but I try to control it when I'm in public. I also hate it when they smoke and drink. Occasionally drinking is fine to me but bruh if you come at me drunk, I'll leave you on the ground passed out.

26. The reason I joined Blogger?
- I wanted to keep an online diary of my life back in elementary school. I've had numerous blogs from blogger, wordpress, tumblr and other sites but Blogger is the last one standing.

27. Fears?
- Hate cockroaches so much. You can make me touch a worm but not cockroaches. I also fear being alone in big intersections. It makes me nervous specially with all the car and truck noises around me.

28. Last thing that made you cry?
- Ahhhh!! That video I watched on youtube. Watch it here!!

29. Last time you said you loved someone?
- Today, I said I love Joshua a lot. I would take a bullet for you.

30. Meaning behind your blog URL?
- I'm into coffee shops though I don't drink coffee. I'm also generally bitter about everything so I thought bitterlattes would suffice lmao. I've actually had this url for a long time, even on Tumblr. Somebody on Tumblr stole the URL when I changed to another URL. 

31. Last book you read?
- To All The Boys I've Loved Before. didn't like it that much

32. The book you're currently reading?
- Was trying to re-read A Perfect Day. It was a great read!! An eye-opener.

33.  Last show you watched?
- I watched half of The Return of Superman last night before going to bed

34. Last person you talked to?
- My mom after she dropped me off to school 2 hours ago.

35. The relationship between you and the person you last texted?
- She is my sister

36. Favourite food?
- I don't really have a favourite food. I just eat what I feel like eating. No such thing as that. I like whatever I eat.

37. Places you want to visit?
- Seoul is the number 1 on my list!!!! Next would be Philippines, I haven't been back in 10 years!! I also want to travel to Japan

38. Last place you were?
- in my school's library?

39. Do you have a crush?
- No, I actually miss crushing on someone.

40. Last time you kissed someone?
- I don't remember. Probably back when I was a kid or something. I'm not very affectionate at all.

41. Last time you were insulted?
- Oh god. That one time my sister and I were going home from campus and we were tired as hell. I was just wearing a short short and a hoodie since it wasn't cold and it wasn't that hot either. Some old lady talked to the person next to her on the bus and said "look at what she's wearing. if that was my daugther, she wouldn't be able to leave the house" Like please care about yourself. I can wear whatever I want.

42. Favourite flavour of sweet?
- I don't get this question?

43. What instruments do you play?
- I play the guitar and I used to play the clarinet and recorder back in elementary school. It was mandatory lol

44. Favourite piece of jewelry?
- Earring, chokers and necklaces. Oh and rings

45. Last sports you played?
- Taekwondo

46. Last song you sang?
- Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays by N'SYNC in my mom's car

47. Favourite chat up line?
- Aside from being sexy, what do you do for a living?

48. Have you ever used it?
- NO I WILL NEVER USE IT lmao So cringey

49. Last time you hung out with anyone?
- Yesterday, with my best friend in the library.

50. Who should answer these questions next?
- Everyone who visits my blog and this post.

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